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Thursday, September 28, 2006

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The moment the doctors broke the news to me....
My tears flow non-stop.
I can't believe my own ears.
They must be lying to me.
I don't wish to believe this.
But what can i do?
KIll them? Tear the report away? Burnt the whole hospital down?
I can't right.
But i really can't accept the fact that someone who doesn't smoke or drink is contacted with CANCER.
And worst! None of the family members got CANCER before.
And his health record is perfect at home. No sickness at all!
How do you expect me to believe this NEWS?!?
This is such a rare case.
And now, i am so afraid that the cancer cells has already spreaded.
if it's so... i will definitely take a knife to kill the 2 doctors straight away. esp the tall one. FUCKING ASS!
The moment i saw him, my tears flow down non-stop again. I know i am being bad by crying in front of him. But what can i do? He still can joke around with me. Seeing him like this, my heart aches.
Why god is being so unfair?
Must he really make him so miserable?
I just don't understand why.
He is the best of the BEST.
Today is the first time in my 18 year of life i saw her crying. And yes, in front of her 2 working friends. I wanted to tell her not to cry, but i just can't manage to open up my mouth. Standing beside her, my tears flow down again.
It makes me heart ache too to see her red puffy eyes now.
The moment he came home, he still ask me about how's my stocks getting along. Need any help or not. I replied with a, still ok, i go to my room take something first. The moment i step into my room, i cried under my pillow to prevent myself to cry loudly. I knew he knew what i was going to do. But i am trying to control. Control myself from breaking down.
Please god. I beg you. Let him be fit and well again to do running with me again.
I want him back!
Please....

2:11 AM;

N {Me}

HuiQi
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N {Achievements/Goals}

Open online shop - Done on 2006
Clear Music Theory G4 - Done on Nov 2008
Diploma in Accountancy and Finance - Done on May 2009
Pursue Full Time Accounting and Finance in SIM-UOL - Done on June 2009
Driving license in class 3 - Done on Oct 2009
Clear Music Theory G5 - Done on Oct 2009
Sold the first 10000 Pieces of masks
Clear Music Theory G6
Clear Music Theory G7
Clear Music Theory G8
Be a certified Music Theory Teacher
Be an accountant
Earn my first $$$$
Get a car without the help of parents

N {Wish}

Pass all modules
White Grand Piano
Learn Cello ASAP
tac-designs to be in world list (dreaming...)
sprees-heaven business to grow bigger!
more $$$

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