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Friday, October 26, 2007

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Not sure what happened.
I don't like friday to come so quickly though is the weekend.
I really hate friday.
Reason very simple.
There's piano lesson on every friday.
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Not sure why.
I do get a little afriad every lesson when i step into the studio.
I don't talk to my teacher.
I don't really face my teacher and ask all the things i had in mind.
I really had A LOT of questions to ask.
And when i say A LOT. is really A LOT.
Ok. i do ask my sister those questions and i do flip back my old notes to check if i am on the correct track.
But i think something is still so wrong.

I am very afriad that my teacher will scold me for not playing it well.
I am very afriad that my teacher will get angry if i ask too much.
I do shiver a little when he ask me to play the pieces.
I will stare at the score for 5 secs before playing.
And he will go, "start now."
I will go, "huh. eh. orh."

I realise i haven't been playing the piano everyday eversince school starts.
Like 3 days 1 time. and the 1 time is only 1.5hours.
Which is totally not enough at all.
But i am afriad that if i spend too much time in front of the piano, i will end up not having time to do my tutorials and revision.

And thus, i have a feeling of regret
I know i am weird.
But because all the school work is pilling too high, i suddenly have a thought like why do i still pick it up again after so many years and when i know i will have difficulties now.
Don't know what happen to me.
Shouldn't i feel happy about it.
Why do i feel this instead.

I sense stress.
I don't know how to divide my time well between school work, piano, friends, family and money!

Actually family still ok.
We still sit down and do chit chat session everyday at least for like half an hour.

School work is the worst.
All the modules like so difficult. I can't understand a single thing at all.
I get very lost during lecture.
I got to re-read everything again at home till i understand it well but it always never really work for some modules.
I tend to ask a lot of questions till i think my friends around me will get mad.
I want a good grade.
I hate the 2 pointer.
I want a 3 pointer badly.

Piano.
I know my school is starting like 1pm almost everyday.
That does not give me the reason for not practising piano.
BUT. as said.
I do get a little afraid when sitting down in front of the piano even at HOME.
I hate to play the wrong note.
BUT everyone makes mistake.
I take very long to master the whole piece with the correct timing, note and etc.
And i tend to get up too late to even practise it.

Friends.
Nothing to said.
I have been missing the outing too much.

Money!
Seriously, i feel broke.
I need a job.
But the fact that i got so many modules cannot understand, makes me don't dare to go ahead.
Sometimes i wonder, how come people can work and study at the same time. And they will get score so well.
YES.
I DON'T DENY.
I AM JEALOUS of it.

Alright.
It's the period of the month.
Saying some nonsense here.
I will make sure i do everything well.
A Well-balance 1.

Ok...
So lionel brother came now to school today.
(Reason by him was, "i come down and look for you and chris." PUKE. i don't believe!)
Which is so rare coz he is having his IPP now.
Was a little shock when i saw him outside LTD-3 sitting like an AH BENG CUM AH PEK! haha!
Chat all the way up to ELDC.
he was complaining that he so long didn't see me already.
Coz i kept missing the outing.
But i always fall sick when there's chalet or outing.
(Hello MR, come back to bukit panjang and stay can. -_________-)
And he told me he saw someone which i go..."Ah!"
HAHA.
And i shall not say out what happen in ELDC room.
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Overall, i need to get a lot of presents this coming month.

2:40 AM;

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Open online shop - Done on 2006
Clear Music Theory G4 - Done on Nov 2008
Diploma in Accountancy and Finance - Done on May 2009
Pursue Full Time Accounting and Finance in SIM-UOL - Done on June 2009
Driving license in class 3 - Done on Oct 2009
Clear Music Theory G5 - Done on Oct 2009
Sold the first 10000 Pieces of masks
Clear Music Theory G6
Clear Music Theory G7
Clear Music Theory G8
Be a certified Music Theory Teacher
Be an accountant
Earn my first $$$$
Get a car without the help of parents

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Pass all modules
White Grand Piano
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sprees-heaven business to grow bigger!
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