{SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.}

Saturday, September 26, 2009

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Home doesn't feel like home anymore.
No more laughter.
No more happiness.
No more what it use to be.
No more.
I hate coming home.
I hate staying at home.
Trying to find myself away from home as much as i can.
But my dear friends have been asking me to stay home more to make things better.
NO.
It's not getting any better.
I don't know how to handle this situation.
This is not an easy situation. It has never happened before.
I cracked all brain cell to think of an solution. But nothing seems to be working.
It's not working.
It's like those TV drama that you see.
It's happening in my house. YES. No lying.
Happy peaceful family for 21 years is gone.
Daddy, i cannot wait until the 10th oct already.
I want you to be back home now.
I can't take it anymore.
You come home quick to settle all this shits. It's no use telling me over the phone on what i should do.
I really cannot take it anymore.
So much stress to add on.
I don't know how to handle all at one go. Family, school, driving, music, business, work.
I cannot take it.
I really want to end my life now. So that all the peaceful memory remains in my heart and they will be with me together when i leave.
I hate to put a smile in front of me when i'm not happy at all.
I hate it.
All this shits.
Why did it happen.
Why.
Why must it be you and you.
The people i respect and look upon to.
I don't care if you are reading this.
But you are making my family and my life upside down.
Shit you.
I hate you!

12:13 AM;

N {Me}

HuiQi
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Gemini
Pianist

N {Achievements/Goals}

Open online shop - Done on 2006
Clear Music Theory G4 - Done on Nov 2008
Diploma in Accountancy and Finance - Done on May 2009
Pursue Full Time Accounting and Finance in SIM-UOL - Done on June 2009
Driving license in class 3 - Done on Oct 2009
Clear Music Theory G5 - Done on Oct 2009
Sold the first 10000 Pieces of masks
Clear Music Theory G6
Clear Music Theory G7
Clear Music Theory G8
Be a certified Music Theory Teacher
Be an accountant
Earn my first $$$$
Get a car without the help of parents

N {Wish}

Pass all modules
White Grand Piano
Learn Cello ASAP
tac-designs to be in world list (dreaming...)
sprees-heaven business to grow bigger!
more $$$

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