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Friday, March 12, 2010

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I shall stop lying to myself anymore.

I really feels uncomfortable in my throat.
Whenever i voice it out, people thinks that i am crazy.
But it's true.
I can feel the sharp pain as and when.
And it has affected my ear.

The pain is unbearable.
But whenever i voice it out, i got scolded for being paranoid.
I am not.
I am really not.

It's been with me for 3 long years.
And i really cannot take it anymore.
I've been telling myself, it must be my mind that's something wrong.
But i cannot take it any longer now.

This few days, it's getting more and more painful.
I remember 3 years back, i went to the ENT for scanning.
He told me, nothing's wrong. Drink more water. If you feel it again, come back for a check.
Yes, i went back for a check. And he told me off by telling me, nothing's wrong. I can't see.
So i shut up till now.
Enduring the stupid damn pain inside. That occurs only when my throat is dry. Or when i am not eating anything.
I drink lots of water everyday. And i really feel bloated with all the water inside.
I self treat by using the most traditional way which is to use salt water.
No use at all.
Everyday i pray that it will be gone.
But it's still here.
It's still attacking me.

I did a search on the net, and the result is really scaring me.

I saw too many scary life story.
I am not brave at all.
I still have lots of undone stuff to complete.

Argh. I am really going crazy.

God damn it.
Just what is happening to me.

12:58 AM;

N {Me}

HuiQi
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N {Achievements/Goals}

Open online shop - Done on 2006
Clear Music Theory G4 - Done on Nov 2008
Diploma in Accountancy and Finance - Done on May 2009
Pursue Full Time Accounting and Finance in SIM-UOL - Done on June 2009
Driving license in class 3 - Done on Oct 2009
Clear Music Theory G5 - Done on Oct 2009
Sold the first 10000 Pieces of masks
Clear Music Theory G6
Clear Music Theory G7
Clear Music Theory G8
Be a certified Music Theory Teacher
Be an accountant
Earn my first $$$$
Get a car without the help of parents

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Pass all modules
White Grand Piano
Learn Cello ASAP
tac-designs to be in world list (dreaming...)
sprees-heaven business to grow bigger!
more $$$

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